Words cannot describe how I'm feeling right this very moment. It's just so hard...why does life have to be so unfair? The guilt is killing me. They ask me to ignore but how can I with all these going on? I want to understand but I can't. I'll always say I understand when I really don't. I'M CONFUSED!!! What should I do??? Oh gosh...

People say "Don't think too much, Ignore le, Aiyo...it'll be fine one la, Don't think too much etc..." IT'S HARD! Try putting yourself in my shoes...then you'll understand. To stand there and watch your friend going through this knowing there's ntg you can do....the feeling sucks! Makes me feel so useless. It's hard enough to have to hide what I really wanna say and just put a smile on my face. Gosh!!! Somebody pls understand! I aint no robot. I've got feelings.

So what do I do now??? I shall figure it out. In the mean time,I'll just try to be there for her.

Btw,this post is not dedicated to anyone. Pls do not misunderstand again... Thanks.