Okay...for now we're doing great. Hopefully what we did will pay off and that this will all end. We're tired of this d...

Okay,it's been bout 3 months d. We still haven't solve it and now the school knows bout it. Anyway they are not suppose to know. The only ppl who were suppose to know were the 11 of us. I'm not gonna point fingers at anyone I just hope that whoever who started this and is still doing it will stop. Pls think bout us before you do anything more okay. And to the ppl who are not involved in this,you guys can stop making matters worse okay. If you're trying to help,thanks but it's really not helping at all.

"Don't judge a book by it's cover." Ever heard of that? Yeahh...you guys are doing that. Come on la. Do you ppl even know me? I didn't do anything to you guys so why do you all have to mess up my life? Is it fun? Don't think so... Trying to make me feel guilty or what? You guys are all giving me and her the weird look when this has got nothing to do with you so if you really do wanna help...stay out! We'll solve it ourself alright. And oh you could stop gossiping bout it too...it'll help tons. Thanks!

I'm human. Would you name me someone living on earth who has never done a single mistake in their life? Everyone makes mistake. There's something called "forgive". Don't hold this grude in your heart...how can you live peacefully? Goodness. Let it go already. Change that attitude of yours. You can say ppl but ppl can't say you? Why??? Everytime you get mad,I'll be the one going to pujuk you. Even when you make me mad or when you tease me,I would just push it aside cos you were my best friend and now you're saying all these things behind my back. Remember that what goes around comes around. Careful...

And yeah,you probably know that you're the one I'm dedicating this paragraph to. Same class...best friend. Ha ha...best friends? YOU DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING!!!! Stop judging me okay! You don't even know what's going on so stop firing me already. Have I not tolerate enough? You hurt my best friend from church and now what are you gonna do? Rip his heart out and stab it before putting it back?! I'm sorry but I just really have to let it go okay. You have no idea what I'm going through now. All you guys do is listen to 1 side of the story...well open up the eyes that you have and see the full picture okay! Yeah maybe I was scared of you all once but I aint afraid no more. Stop stepping on my head okay. You make mistakes too...so unless you are clean and without mistakes then only judge me kay! Don't wanna talk to me? WAnna sabotage me? I'll just keep tolerating...

Florence,thanks for being really truthful to me. I appreciate it a lot. And yeah,whatever you say I'll keep it in my head. Remember what I told you kay. I'll make it up to you. Can't wait to work with you for the upcoming project. We're gonna have fun plus,this is the time for us to strengthen our friendship. =)

Jesslyn and Poh Ling,thanks for being truthful to. We owe you guys.

Chantri!!! You are like so care free. Lol...thanks for your support and encouragement. For your stories that would make me laugh and for being there when I needed someone.

Reuben,I'm so so so so so sorry you have to be dragged into this too. Lol...thanks for listening to me and for tolerating with my uh....anger? Lol... I know sometimes I just push you away and find fault with you but you still tolerate and talk nicely which makes me feel so bad. So yeah...thanks.

Carin,wow...all the way in Australia and you have to still bare with my whining. Lol...thank Ca...love you so much.

Grace....fuiyoh...we've been through so much! I mean it has only been a few months but wow...haha...looking back, I wonder how you can tolerate. Well thanks for being my support when I feel like giving up. Thanks for you killer stares that scares me and for you stupid pinch. Thanks for everything le. Lol...

Melanie,I hope I made it clear to you. Didn't want you to think this is true when it's not. Thanks too.

And you...I don't care bout what you think or say. I still do care for and bout you.

Above is what I wanna say and it's also how I feel but it's all gonna end soon...

Guess this is where I put the pen down. The ending sucks...but it's a beginning of something new. I've learn many things. It'll stay with me. And the memories will last...

Some random pics...


I took this pic that's why I'm not in it... Cheh....should have asked my bro to take it.


US!!!!!!! I miss this so much.


Thanks wen for this pic.


Me and Muha...stupid cat. That silly Muha attracted the cat to us and got scared when it came to us...


Shobaa destroyed my sandcastle...


Wilson and Reuben....

2 weeks ago was Parents Appreciation Day. The youth of PCC decided to combine mother's day with father's day instead of celebrating it twice. I invited grace and Chan to come. Chan couldn't make it as she was in KL so Grace came alone. Wow...lol... Before she came Roy was extremely nervous. I just don't understand why. Lol... Anyway I failed to calm him down so yeah I just left him. When she arrived,me,Jordan,Roy and Claudia went down to get her. Lol...

After that we went up and I paid RM 15 for Grace. That was for her to eat. Unfortunately that fish did not touch anything!!! She just drank orange juice. I PAID 15 BUCKS FOR HER ORANGE JUICE!!!! *faints*

Anyway each cell groups presented their stuff. The southern sheep peresented a short sketch. I was hoping Grace wouldn't see but yeah...failed. Lol... Saw her laughing at her seat which made things worse. Lol... Picture time...


Now I get wat Jordan was trying to tell me. Sorry le...I do not understand sign language. Lol...


Ohhhh....2 of my fav boys. Jordan and Bernard. Jordan's the kecil molek and Bernard's the one in stripe shirt. And yeah Muha....your ahem is here. Lol...


The whole of ISCA. I do not see me.... Ish...


THERE!!!! I see me...! Between Grace and my sis. Lol...

All in all,it was great. Lol... I love you mom and dad. And thanks Grace for coming. Was really fun huh? Lol...Brian and Grace.

This are just a few pics I took during our practice and our outing to Gurney. Really miss those times...


This is just some random pic.


Close up...it says JOHAN. Sob sob...


Ai Wen...busy practising?


Ai Wen,Amber and Shobaa going through their lines. Lol...some of them were not around so Shobaa became the nurse and all. Lol...


Wen became "Abby" for a while. Lol...Ish...I miss practices so much le... Grace was still at Genting when we were practising here.


Muhanniz and Wardah. What kind of doctor sits on the floor and look up to the nurse? Stupid...lol...


Chantri and Wen...


Okay they are gonna kill me for uploading this pic but who cares le? It's memories right Wen and Muha? Lol...

Grace came back from Genting on Tuesday and joined us on Wed. We decided to go out with a few friends to relax. So after practice we went to....GURNEY!


We were really hungry so we stopped at NANDOS to eat. Above is Jerald and Chan


Wen with Esther.


Muha...this girl so busy choosing her food,she can't even smile for the camera.


Okayyy....this is my brother... What kind of expression?! Lol...

All in all,I had fun. I REALLY MISS PRACTICES AND PERAK!!!!!!!!!!! Sob sob... It's so weird that we're no longer skipping class,staying back or going to Chan and Grace's house. Haih....

Just want to take this time to wish my friend Shobaa a very happy birthday. I'm so sorry I won't be able to join you today but you guys go ahead and enjoy yourselves alright. Lol...I spent 4 days with you in Perak d so that's enough right? Haha... Happy birthday girl.

This post is gonna be kinda long I guess. Lol...anyway you guys know we won state level and went on to nationals. We lft to Perak on Mnoday and came back today at about 1.30 p.m. Our 4 days 3 night trip was awesome. Something that will always stay with us.

Monday
Woke up at 6 a.m. Was really excited and all. Wow...I was just so so so hyper. My mom was forcing me to eat breakfast cos I didn't want to. Arrived at school at bout 7.45 a.m. Mom and dad prayed for me and the whole team. I met Amber there and Grace was with her mom talking so yeah. Later on the rest of the members came. 5 minutes before we leave, Ai Wen arrived. Lol... So in the bus I sat with Grace, Ai Wen with Chan,Yinn with Shobaa, Wardah with Farahin,Muha with Amber and Jesslyn was switching patners so yeah. We were noisy,no doubt bout that. Lol... So anyway,we dropped by the JPN office to pick 4 other students up. They switched bus halfway cos they said we were too noisy. Oops... We stopped at Bukit Merah there and yeah I bought SPRITE. Was really desperate for that drink. Was so happy after I bought that. Continued our journey after that. Watched The Unborn on bus. Lol...we were screaming but to be truthful, it wasn't that scary le. Just the sound effect and all made it a little freaky. We arrived at around 2-3 p.m. We were each given a purple shirt to wear. It was our states shirt or something so yeah we just wore it and went for a group picture then off to the hostel we went. My name was the first to be called. Room V3-D-4 with Chuah Ai Wen. Yinn with Shobaa, Chan with Grace, Muha with Amber, Farahin with Wardah and Jesslyn with nachal. Everybody got their patners they sat with in bus except for me and Ai Wen so Grace and Wen switched room. Fyi,my block was different from the rest so yeah. Scary. 2 bathroom and 2 toilets. So we checked in and picked our beds. I picked the wrong bed!!! Ish. Lol... the funny thing was when me and Grace wanted to go shower. I left the key in the room and the "wind" blew the door close. Loscking us outside and the key inside. So in conclusion, we wasted an hour looking for the man and not only that, I lost RM5 for the spare key. Sob sob... Grace kept scolding me...Lol...chill girl. So we showered,went for dinner and went to the hall for some taklimat. Nearly slept...lol...boring le! After that went back to the room,showered and all. I was lying on my bed talking when Grace scared me. So I grab her small pillow and jump on her bed to sleep with her. Lol...talking to her at night is really useless. It's like talking to the wall cos she keeps texting! Lights out....

Tuesday
Woke up at 7 today. Breakfast was at 6.45 a.m but I didn't eat. That silly fish was hungry but when I ask her to go down to eat she didn't want. Aiyo... Anyway,today was our competition. *faints* We went to the hall to watch the first 2 teams that were gonna perform. They were from Sabah and another state. They were good. Anyway our turn to compete was at 9.30 p.m. Uh huh...at night. So after the 2nd team performed,our team went back to pracetice. We did the practice 4 times. Lol... Then we rushed back to shower and change. nobody ate dinner except for Wen, Muha, Farahin,Chan and Wardah. The rest were too nervous d. So yeah we arrived at the hall at bout 8.45 p.m. set up everything. We were rushing so we made a lot of noise and the man had to come and remind us to keep our voices down cos other states were performing and they were using the boom mics. Okay okay....sorry sir. So our TIME came. I hugged everyone except for Shobaa. I remember Wen hugging me like at least 4 times. Lol...must be really nervous. Grace hugged hard...lol. Muha was cursing and cursing I just stood there staring at her. 3,2,1...ACTION. Muha and I walk on stage. The minute Muha says "Good morning Ms. Abby",everything starts. No turning back... There was this malay guy back stage with us and he was there to remind us to relax and all. he actually laughed at us cos I guess he knew we were freaking out and all. Lol... There was once Muha left her file on stage and there was no way to get it back and we really needed it. he ran to look for paper for us. So sweet right. Aww...thanks boy. Didn't manage to catch his name though. Took loads of pics together. We were all happy it was over. Me and Grace slept in Wen's room tonight. I still had her pillow!!! YES!!!!! Lol...nights...

Wednesday
I guess for all of us,today is the day we're really nervous bout. Woke up at 6 today to move in for Grace to sleep cos I saw her sleeping at the end of the bed. I've been checking on her like every few hours cos I scared she got no space. Lol... At 9,somebody knocked on our door like so many times so I got up to open. It was the EAK girls. They had locked their keys in the room and asked me for my room key. I passed it to the, and stood at the door to wait. Sleepy le. Then I went back to sleep. Woke up at 10 with Wen and Chan. We decided to kacau Grace so we whispered into her ear and she immediately woke up. Lol... So me and Grace went back to our room to bathe and all. Later on at bout 1 we crossed back to Wen's room to talk and all. Then we took a bus to the Chanselory. I do not know how to spell but yeah. Like WOW!!!!! The library is HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not kidding. I just stood there and stared. They even have lifts to take you up and down. Yeah...that was big it was. Lol... The toilet was cool too. We then went into the hall for some talk but me,Grace,Wen and Chan left halfway to use the toilet. Then we met teacher and she said if we were hungry we could go to the cafeteria to eat so yeah we did excatly that. Lol... After that when we rejoin the group...something happened. I guess it was from there that things changed. Should have known. Went back to the room. Was still screaming at Grace and all the time....until dinner came. We were suppose to know the results tonight by going for dinner and then if they ask us to go into the hsll,that means we made it. Sadly we were not called in. I cried,Wen,Grace,Amber,Grace cried. But that time I thought we were crying cos we lost but there was more to it. I was just so blind not to see it. Going back to the hostel was weird for me. Me and my room patner didn't talk at all...which was really awkward. We then moved on to Wen's room. That was when everything that all of us have been keeping in our heart poured out. No wonder they have been acting weirdly...I should have seen this coming. So yeah...we talked bout it and all. I'm really happy we did it cos I've never done this before and I guess that's the reason why my friendship with some ppl are history now. So that you to the 10 of you who shared your thoughts and feelings with me. To Chan, I'm so sorry..won't do it anymroe, Yinn, I'll keep trying... Grace,girl I've told you a thousand times d,you should know, Muha...I'm sorry too,Amber,yeah now I know how you feel. I'll make it up to you. Thank you huys. I slept at 5.30 today. Grace who was next to me slept at 4.30 leaving me to look at her sleep. Lol...good thing Amber was talking to me.

Thursday
grace woke me up at 7.30 a.m. We were suppose to return the keys at 8 but we were still in Wen's room. So yeah we rushed back. Lol... The women then came and took our keys. We showered and tool our luggages out of the room. Took 1 last look into the room and walked down the place. met up with the gang for breakfast. It was awkward at first but better towards the end. Boarded the bus and Penang,here we come. Lol... Grace slept like a pig. She took up half of my seat. Lol...but I moved anyways cos she has been the one allowing me to sleep like a baby the past few nights. It was so hot and she had her jacket o her so I pushed my air con to her...now she has 2 air cons. I turned to talk to Wen and Chan. But after a while, I fell alseep too. Lol... After I woke up, grace was still asleep. Like wow. So yeah teacher said we could call our parents d so I was looking for Graces ohone as I wanted to tell ehr mom for her but I couldn't find it so I text her sis instead. Then I went back to sleep. Bout 30 minutes later I woke up to talk to Wen and all. Grace then woke up and the bus was noisy again. Lol... We were all eating,chatting and all. We have beem using the phrase "this has gotta go" the whole trip. The way Wen says it is hilarious. Lol.. Well we arrived at school at bout 1? Yeah... I almost took home Grace's pillow but failed. Lol.. Well I shal try next time! Lol...

All in all,this trip has been awesome! I wouldn't spend the holidays with anyone but them. Thank yo so much for making this 2 weeks of holidays a blast. Eventhough we did not win,we know we gave our best and that's all that matters right? Lol...so yeah. I love you guys dearly. I'm starting to miss the place d!!!!!

Have you ever felt like the ppl closest to you are actually using you to get something that they want? Well I do but I feel like I should continue helping them. Am I stupid or what?

I feel like I'm a thing they use when they need and dump when everything's okay. Kinda tired of it but I shall tolerate. It's not easy though but I'm glad I have friends who will never use me. Thank you! *hugs*

*mom's nagging me to sleep now. Lol...*

The day we've been waiting for is here. We'll be leaving to Perak tomorrow. To be truthful,we aint ready. We're nervous and there's still things not done but I'm just gonna pray bout it and give my best. I know how badly our team wants to win but we'll have to learn not to keep our hopes too high. Lol...

WISH US LUCK PPL!!! Will be back on Thursday...

As you all know,we won state level last month. Was really happy bout it and we were all excited bout going for Nationals and all. Well,in 1 more day,we'll be off to Perak. *faints* Words cannot describe how scared/nervous I am. I feel like quitting but I know I can't. I'm just argh!!! I can't even sit still to memorise my lines cos I'll end up being too nervous. Haiz...

Anyway,below are some pics take from our previous competition. I really do hope we win. At least 2nd. That's what the teachers want from us. And yesterday during practice,the props gave way. Oh god would you pls help us. We are all tired and frustrated. We're feeling the pressure and we're stressed out d. Pls pls pls pls help us GOD!!!!!!!!!!


Me, Wen, Grace and Chan....


The team. Unfortunately, Maithilli and Audrey can't make it. So Jesslyn Ooi, Wardah and Farahin will be following us.


I never noticed my legs on Graces legs. Lol...

Anyway,I'm glad I'm going through this with the ppl I'm close to. Love each of them so much! Well,honestly I will be very disappointed if we do not win but hey,we had fun right? So yeah...

So here you are standing in front of my face pretending ntg's wrong when you are holding a knife behind you so that I wont be able to see it. Every time I'm not looking you stab that knife into me repeatedly and just leave me there to bleed. to make things better for you,you pull others along and gave each of them a knife to stab me. it makes you happy don't it to see how much I'm suffering now. Wow...I can see how your plan is going and I think it's going well. Congrats anyway,I'm too tired to keep fighting. You want them,you can have them. You want her,take it.

And then there's another thing...I met these ppl in school. Thought they were really nice and all. I told my friends that I've found new friends and I thought they were awesome. Little did I know how evil they could get. they used me over and over and over again till they could not get anything out from me then they just leave. Now,I can't even make friends with other ppl,they'll just show me their stupid faces and they think they are so smart when they shoot me. Like hello,I don't need you okay. I have other friends who will support. Don't have to go around pulling my hopes down one by one thank you very much.

I really do think that grace left for Genting at the wrong time. Lol...

Wow...today was suppose to be the day I would wake p really late and do things like really slowly...BUT I had sketch practice today. At 6.30 a.m, my dad kicked me up and I showered and bla bla to rush to school. WOW...I was the only 1 there. Lol...so I sat there to wait for the rest. Yinn came then Wen followed by Muha and Aud. Sadly Aud and Amber had YE stuff so they couldn't join us. Chan didn't know bout practice...I thought she was not in Penang and Grace was enjoying herself in Genting. Lol... So yeah just me,Wen,Yinn and Muha.

At about 10 a.m, Shobaa came. Haha...that's "early". Lol...we rehearsed our lines bout 3 times then sat down to listen bout ghost stories. Planned bout what to bring and other things which I didn't really agree with. I was like so tired I kept yawning. Well Pn. Shamala was there to help us out. THANK YOU!!! At 12, we went to the announcement room to meet Pn. Choo. She wanted to see me so I dragged the other 4 in with me. Wow...when she gave me compliment I nearly flew off. Thank you!!! Lol...

I'm like really tired but I still have practice from today till like sunday. Fuiyoh...great way to spend my holidays. Lol... I'm TIRED!!!!

P/s: Come back fast,the world is going crazy without you.
P/s/s: Waiting for Grace to be free so that I'll be able to text her.

Sorry for not updating but there was exams and all so yeah now I'm free!!! Well not really free le. Right now I'm triple tasking. Lol...blogging,typing out the script and listening to music. Last week was hectic and crazy.

Monday
Exam ended on Monday and we all went over to grace's house to watch horror movie. Yes that was the day I wished will never come but it did anyway. Not that bad huh? YEAH RIGHT!!! So scary k. Oh gosh. Try asking Muha, Yinn or Grace bout my reaction. It was crazy. The women that crawled out from the well is still stuck in my mind. Haiz...but it was fun though. Practices are starting the next day. Couldn't really sleep so I texted Grace till I went to dreamland. Lol...

Tuesday
Went to school. ntg much happened. Went out for so called practice but eneded up doing ntg. Boring. Lol...went for tuition with Chan at night.

Wednesday
Stayed back today but we ended up at Grace's place. We watched another horror movie but it couldn't beat 1 missed call. Lol....finished up Grace's MILO cereal. Felt so bad after that. Lol... went back at 6. Super tired.

Thursday
Skipped school today. Something happened that made me so mad. I went to school after school ended and Grace told me nobody was staying back....WHAT?!!! Lol..so yeah. I was left with Chan till 6. It wasn't that bad. Got to watch how Audrey's group was doing for their dance. It was nice.

Friday. (29th May 09)
Today was crazy. our school celebrated teacher's day today. It was really boring at first but after a while it was fun. Pn. Shamala danced today and the crowd went nuts. She was good!!! Lol...so then we went back to class,I followed Muha to her class and I had fun there. Later on we played a really gross game which required the loser to drink Ai Wen's home made drink. Lol...should have seen Grace, Wen and Muha's face when they drank it. LOL. After school followed Grace back. Today was an important day for her.

So we went to eat lunch at market. Ate like a pig. Her sister skipped school today so she was there with us. Me and Sher were kinda afraid of her. Lol... So anyway, went back to her place and showered. Then Grace did her thing while I sat there reading magazines. At about 4,we left to Autocity. Stopped by her dad's office till bout 5? Then went to Autocity. Wow...there were ppl waiting there already. Grace and her sister's expression made me laughed. Lol... oh yeah...FAHRENHEIT was coming tonight and Grace got tickets so yeah I just tagged along.

The line was long and the ppl there did not act like human beings that day. They just pushed and pushed. Nearly died. Got seperated from grace for a moment. Scariness. Anyways the concert was okay le. But I left halfway for if I were to stay any longer I'll just faint and die there. Lol...so I went into Subway and guess who I saw. PN. LIM!!! I was shocked and so was she. but I ended up sitting with her. Lol...to cut the whole story short. It was fun but really tiring. Went back at 1.30 a.m. Bathed and slept at 2. It was a great experience for me. Lol...thank you grace for dragging me along!