I thought I had everything in life. A family,eventhough it's not the kinda of family I want,they are still my family and I love them,friends that are there to support,studies? Well,my studies aint that good but it's okay. Now.... 1 month? 2 months? 3 months? What infection? Somebody tell me... Why now? Why me? I'm lost... Who do I turn to now?

And national levels are coming up. Don't think I can go cos of my condition. What do I do now? Find a replacement? I can't just abandon my team and leave them. WHAT DO I DO?! Each time I look at my team members,I feel so bad. It's like I'm betraying them cos I promised to be committed but now.....aih.... I'm sorry Muha, Grace, Chantri, Ai Wen, Shobaa, Swee Yinn, Maithilli, Sophia, Audrey and Amber. Make me proud alright...

p/s : Don't worry bout me, I'll text you once in the morning and once at night. Thanks...